I feel like 2 watch movie in cinema...

But who i will ask 2 accompany me?

Friends busy...

Boyfriend not here...

Parent wont see together...

Alone???

Never...

That to bored...

Nothing special on my special event day...

Everything make me feel low...

Sad...

Not satisfield...

I know i miss him...

I know i do love him...

But on the same time...

I feel lonely...

hurt...

Ignorent...

I always kept what i feel...

Deep of my heart...

Im hurt...

Piece by piece...

My heart feel so pain...

Why he ignore me...?

Why he never realize it...?

Why he never understand me...?

Even he dont want to listen what i told him...

Am i really special to him?

If yes...why this thing happen?

Im really tired...

Everyday i cry...

Not only hurt...

But everything feel like killing me slowly....

Im dying...

Please save me...

Before everything is to late...

What happent 2 me??
2 or 3 weeks already...
I feel sad,angry,dissappointed,lonely...
I dnt want feel like this...
But i cant avoid this feeling...
If some mistake i will angry...
Or i will feel sad...
Cry...
Am i crazy???
Gooossshhhh...
Or im just being lonely??
I think i have 2 refresh my mind...
Go 2 somewhere...
Rest...Relax...
But with who??

Who will accompany me???

No body...

Fuck!!!

I hate my life...

Y i cant laugh like last time???

Y i cant feel like last time???

Y i cant be happy???

If im not crazy also i will be crazy if like this...

GOD help me...

Please help me...

I want my life back...

I want everything back...

Back like last time...

But can i???

I hope n i will pray 4 it...

Im sick now...

I want 2 slepp...

I need some1 to take care bout me...

Gooosshhhh....

But nobody...

Just me n my self...

Problem...

Everybody have it...

No matter how old or young...

It's like best friends 2 humans...

If people want 2 be great person...

They must face the problem...

They must solve it...

If they run from problem...

The problem wont let they go...

Some peoples say that coward...

But the important thing is...

How you solve it...

How you manage everything...

If you have problem...

Dont hurt peoples that love you...

People that support you...

If you do...

That the big mistake...

You should talk with some one...

Listen the advice from them...

Maybe at that time you can't think properly...

Don't to ego...

Alone

Im alone...

Again n again...

Sucks!!!!

Hate it...

Promise...

But did gain...

Tired...

Lonely

Im alone again 2dy...

I thought he will treat me different...

Coz his mood is good...

Mine also good...

1st we talk like usually...

We laugh...

Then suddently he keep quite...

I keep calling him...

I thought he listen what i said...

But at certain poin...

I know tht he sleep already...

My heart hurt...

I dissapointed at tht moment...

But i realize he not so well...

Then i say ok...

I dont want 2 bother him...

Then when he call me back...

He say like tht my false..

Im confused...

What have i done???

Then he say he guilty...

Then i say...

I never shout or angry 2 him...

Y tht still my false...

I really2 dont understand...

I know he really slow if something bout my feelling...

I know sometimes he like 2 dont bother my feelling...

But i have feelling 2...

Am i wrong about tht 2???

I feel im lonely now...

It hurt my feelling...

Boring...

So long never shopping...

So long never watch cinema...

So long never play bowling...

So long never play roller blade...

So long never laugh like crazy...

So long never hang with friends...

So long never eat with friends at favorite cafe or restaurant...

So long never do what i like 2 do...

So long 4 everything...

I miss all thing...

I miss my past...

I miss my life...

What happent to me???

Fever...

Im fever now...

I feel so cold...

But my body so hot...

My head feel dizzy...

All muscle feel pain...

Im vormit many time...

I take medicine...

N i sleep all the time...

I feel my body like flying when i stand n walk...

I want rest now...

My Cat..Chico

2dy everything look fine...

I wake up very early in the morning...

Went out with parent 2 do something...

Take a lunch...

Then after finish everything went home...

Afternoon is the best time to slept...

Hve a tea break with parent on evening...

Play with cats...

Watch t.v...

Then when i want 2 give my cat eat at the nite...

I was shock...

My cat...

Lying at floor...

Tht time i knew...

My cat already die...

Im crying...

That time suddently i remember...

The moment when he born...

The time when he play with me...

I share my laugh with him...

I gave him medicine when he sick...

I really miss him...

Mybe 4 other he just a cat...

But 4 me...

He is my friend...

Sometimes more easy 2 talk with pet more than human...

I love him...

I do miss him...

Hmmm

Where i can find money...

Who can give me money...

Why everybody need money...

When the world dont use money...

Money...Money...Money...

Sometimes is good...

But more bad...

Now money very important...

Without money we cant survive...

With money we can help people...

With money also we can hurt people...

Money can make people become crazy...

Money can change people...

From good to bad...

Money can make world become upside down...

Money can give power to people...

Power to talk...

Power to rules...

Money can break relation between siblings,friends,relatives and maybe parent...

All because Money...

How powerful money...

Only certain people can stand with money without destroy with it........

Boreddddddddddddddddddddd......
What should i do??
I feel i want 2 go out with friends..
But they working..
Boyfriend..hhmm...dont mention..
Parent...aaahhhh....goosshh....
Somebody plss ask me out..
I want watch cinema..
Karaoke..
Ice skate..
Bowling..
Roller blade..
Or just do something different..
Im really2 bored...

Why This Happent...

Y this happent??
I just want 2 talk with him..
I misz him so much..
He promise 2 me 2 spend time with me 2dy..
But he say he tired..
Then he voice like he really forced 2 talk with me..
Y he do this 2 me..
I really sad..
Im crying..
But he just sleep..
I know he tired working..
I know many work 2 do n he have responsibility..
Im always undrstand him..
I just ask couple of time 4 me..
Thats all i want..